it's been like 2 years since my last update. i only made this for ontd.

but anyways. because i know that nobody reads this i'm going to be a big baby right now. just like heather is on xanga >:} hehehehe i'm jk heathen. i love you.

time for seriousness.
i never knew that you could be in such a terrible position. like, you pretty much can't win. but now i know that my parents have been in that situation for nearly 28 years, and it seriously breaks my heart.
i never knew that i could love someone that i've never met-never even seen. and i know that i shouldn't. just because he's blood doesn't mean he's anything like me and doesn't mean that he's even a good person. but i do.
i never thought that my life could get so complicated in such a short amount of time.
and i never knew how distracting something like this could be. i can't focus on anything really, as hard as i try.

all i know is that 6 days ago, i found out that i have an older brother, and that my parents are torn apart by the fact that they gave him away. i know that my sisters and i need to help them find his parents, and hopefully, through them, have a chance at meeting him. whatever we need to do to help ease their pain. we owe it to them for being such amazing parents, and such loving people.

summer's been okay, more eventful than usual, but i still haven't gotten to see half the people that i told myself i would hang out with-everyone has their own thang goin on. schedules seem to clash, and people including myself are too indecisive and lazy to really plan things.

i feel like i'm growing up much slower than i'm supposed to, and i can't decide if that's a good or a bad thing...or if you can just define it as a whole by being good or bad.

harry potter 5 sucked.

jessica's wedding was nice, so was dad's birthday, soon it will be kymbre's birthday, then weekend at the cross and harry potter and the deathly hollows!!! ( :D )

p.s. i love james bond

Current Mood: weird

"find a friend and stay close and with a melting heart
tell them whatever you're most ashamed of-
our parents have made so many mistakes,
but may we forgive them and forgive ourselves"


coty says "friends only to keep out creepy lurker half-human filthy swine."
yeeeah, she said it.